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  Praise for the dominant hand: The Unauthorized Story of Jim Jacobs and the Cult that Saved the World

  “This very well could be the cult classic of our generation.” —Jennifer Chancellor, Tulsa World

  “I devoured this new book by Charles Martin. I mean, hardly put it down, read it in six hours. … Martin takes the rocker cliché to a completely different level in this gritty story that blurs the lines between fact and fiction. the dominant hand is easily a cult classic.” —Shar Grant, Artbeat

  “The language is a bit raw in places and there's some sexual content but I found the dominant hand hard to put down.” —The Norman Transcript.

  “A riveting tale spun in the traditions of Vonnegut and Palahniuk. Sure to grab you by the nape of the neck, and shove you headlong into a cult classic. Read it now, not later.” —Shilo Brown, Book Beat & Co.

  “Well-written and meant for the well-read music fan … a detective story set in a localized music scene told from fourteen different perspectives.” —Justin Sowers, Guestroom Records

  the dominant

  hand

  The Unauthorized Story of Jim Jacobs and the Cult that Saved the World

  Stories collected by

  Charles Martin

  and

  Will Weinke

  A work of fiction

  Published by Literati Press at Smashwords

  Copyright 2008 Charles Martin.

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  Table of Contents:

  Willy Wonka

  Marcus

  Jack Daniels

  Sean

  Chris

  Oscar

  Mitch the Witch

  Charles

  Ash

  Robbsteady0013

  The Dogbowl

  Eliza Knights

  Herb Hefner

  Ira

  Herb Hefner 2

  Eliza Knights 2

  The Dogbowl 2

  Robbsteady0013 2

  Ash 2

  Charles 2

  Mitch the Witch 2

  Oscar 2

  Chris 2

  Sean 2

  Jack Daniels 2

  Marcus 2

  Willy Wonka 2

  To Todd

  All the people in this book are fictional; any resemblance to those, living or dead, is purely coincidental.

  Author’s Note: This work is the result of a year and a half of research in which Charles Martin and I collected accounts from people involved in that horrible day as well as government documents from official and unofficial sources. This book tells the most thorough account of the tragic and mysterious event in Norman, Oklahoma and the days leading up to it.

  —Will (Willy Wonka) Weinke

  Willy Wonka

  Taken from my answering machine, the call had been placed at 3:20 a.m. Eastern:

  Will, Will? Pick up, Will. It’s Jim and I’ve got to talk to you so pick up. (Silence) Goddammit, Will! Okay, fine, but erase this as soon as you hear it. I just got back this morning, and I lost. They are coming, and they are coming soon. I’ve got to talk to you. Have you warned the world yet? Come see me as soon as you can, okay? I’m not sure where I’ll be, I don’t know who’s around anymore. (Silence) I’m not even sure what month it is.

  “Is this about the ogres, again?”

  I chuckled while surveying the faces around me to ensure no one was listening and sipped on my coffee. Dave’s question wasn’t unexpected, but it still sent my heart into a series of hard, stammering beats. Dave Fairview was the editor of a mid-level music magazine, Timbre. He smiled like a man who always thought you were lying to him, and he enjoyed it.

  Dave leaned back in a cheap plastic chair, looked over his ridiculously thick, black-rimmed glasses while taking a sip from his Darth Vader coffee mug. The smile faded as snickering women passed by our table. He scratched his unkempt stubble, yawned and then gave me that smile again.

  “It’s not really about the ogres,” I whispered, scanning the buzzing break room filled with chattering staffers.

  Dave nodded like a bobblehead, then took another sip. Staffers converged on a receptionist as she emerged with a box of doughnuts, and I was relieved that everyone was groping in the box for their sugar fix instead of staring at the red tinge of humiliation glowing on my forehead. I ran my hand along my brow, collecting the moisture beading to the surface, and was reminded of the tragic status of my ever-receding hairline. My scalp had once sprouted a brilliant mop of bright red curls that were embarrassing and inevitable, given my mother’s irrational attachment to the Ronald McDonald ‘fro. The blooming red had withered and retreated from my head down to my pasty, freckle-filled back and I’d grimly considered my mother’s long-standing offer of Rogaine.

  A quick glance back up to Dave’s steady gaze showed he wasn’t going to respond to me. Instead, he studied me like a poker shark, reading my hand and making his play.

  Don’t tip your hand, Will. Don’t you fucking tip your hand.

  “I’m serious, Dave,” I relented. “I just want to revisit the whole episode, but not the stupid rumors and the ridiculous mythology.”

  “No, Will, no,” Dave sighed. “Any conversation that even remotely contains ogres, leprechauns, fairies or mermaids cannot be about anything else. If I told you I went to Dunkin Donuts this morning, and oh, by the way, a one-eyed giant was panhandling outside, what would that conversation be about? Not the doughnuts.”

  My hand twitched nervously, partly from an overabundance of caffeine, but mostly because I’ve always been a jittery person. I was the kid who pissed his pants while stuck on a question at the chalkboard.

  Yeah, that’s me. Always cool as ice.

  “So, you want to do another article about Jim Jacobs?” Dave ventured. “You’re five years and a thousand miles from Norman and its invasion of Jim’s mystical creatures. Maybe it’s time to move on with your life, Will.”

  Across the room, two bird-faced women with cat eye glasses and stern pony tails giggled and snarked quietly to each other. They wrote fashion and food, were as cliquish as a witches’ coven and tried not to be bothered that no one liked to sit at their table or wanted to hear about their overly pampered lapdogs. I’d feel better about my self-righteous disdain for the two had I not attempted, unsuccessfully, to court both of them.

  I assumed the two women caught the gist of our conversation and, like the rest of the country, they knew Jim’s ogres. They grinned, whispered and took turns pointing their beady eyes back in our direction. It made the same nervous acid rise in my stomach as when they parried my romantic advances and then showed up at the very show I’d invited them to with other men.

  Humiliation isn’t new to me. I’ve been defending Jim for years and was nearly ostracized for it. Before the ogres, Jim was a musical genius, the kind that yuppies pretended to like and hipsters pretended to only like his “early stuff.” The sons and daughters of Middle America could use Jim as a passwo
rd, and those who knew the password could show that they were in on something the rest of the world was too uncivilized to understand. Rolling Stone and MTV would mention him briefly, maybe review an album, but fans knew in their hearts that the mainstream didn’t get Jim, just as the mainstream didn’t get them.

  Then came sound tracks for movies, appearances on talk shows. Then came the Grammy. Everything started crumbling just when it looked like Plaid finally crossed over.

  After Jim started seeing his ogres, he became the guy that began that crazy cult in Norman, Oklahoma. I was the reporter who believed in him, and it had nearly destroyed my career.

  Nearly. And there I was, finishing the job.

  “Okay, Willie,” Dave smirked, leaning in. “Pitch me your story.”

  I glanced back at the women, but they were now eyeing the magazine’s resident gamer, chirping over the three sprinkled doughnuts he hoarded.

  “I’ve never really told the whole story about that situation,” I began slowly.

  “It’s been done, Will. Over and over and over again. This is not a subject that needs to be rehashed. Unless you honestly have something else to offer, something new. I’ve heard they’ve got that concert going on where they’re planning on the resurrection of Mr. Jacobs. I’d heard that his crazy cult nearly beat some guy to death in the woods.”

  Even Dave calls them a “crazy cult.”

  “Honestly, Will, is this really something you want to take on? Other writers would be fine, but I figured you’d want to put a little distance between yourself and Mr. Jacobs.”

  I took a sip of coffee and swished it around my mouth to let it cool. I gulped it down and leaned farther in.

  “I was there,” I said softly. “From beginning to end. There are things about it that never got out. Things about Jim, things that I saw.”

  The break room’s white noise dropped, leaving only the sounds of the sputtering coffeemaker, the clicking of the gamer’s chewing jaw and the last few words of my confession. Dave looked around as other staffers dropped their eyes and pretended to be distracted by their doughnuts and magazines.

  “Let’s go to my office,” Dave grumbled, standing up and waving me to follow.

  I tossed my unfinished cup of coffee in the trash as I walked through the break room, ignoring curious eyes. Dave looked into the box of doughnuts and swatted people’s hands away as he reached for a jelly-filled.

  Once we left the break room, the voices resurfaced and I knew my name would be in every hushed exchange of gossip for the rest of the day. The acidic anxiety rumbled in my belly again, but I knew I couldn’t let humiliation stop me. It wasn’t another obscure band that no one had heard of; it wasn’t a reissue of B-sides that only a handful of ultra fans cared about. This was the story about Jim I should have written five years ago.

  Just don’t tip your hand, Will.

  Dave’s office door was littered with glossy photos from press kits and backstage passes, looking like a steamer trunk pasted with all the stickers of interesting places the owner traveled. Some people work to earn money to buy interesting things; music writers accept underpaying jobs to be reimbursed in swag. We can’t afford T-shirts, so we only wear what comes in press kits. If the band makes it big, we stow the swag away for a couple years and bring it back out when it’s hip again. If we don’t like the band, then we just wear it ironically.

  I really identify with Dave. Like most music journalists, he’s too working class to be a proper scenester and not counter culture enough to be a proper musician. So, to support the scene he couldn’t afford, he wrote about it. Unlike me, he came down with a severe case of fatherhood and shifted from freelance writing into the unenviable role of editor. He jokes that every time he has to break in a new writer, it costs him ten strands of hair. Apparently he’d gone through a lot of writers, but I gotta think part of his hair loss was due to kids.

  Truthfully, I’d like to be a dad one day, but I don’t do well with women on a romantic level. It’s hard for me to respect a woman who is attracted to my squat, pale and hairy body. I’m working on it, though. Watching what I eat, I’m shaving regularly, playing hockey with friends and slowly making my way up to higher tax brackets.

  Dave slouched down in his chair and rattled his mouse to jolt the computer awake. On his desk, there was a picture with Dave and his musical hero, Morrissey, half-hugging. Next to it was a slightly smaller portrait of his wife and children, inexplicably looking slightly up and to the right. I got the vibe from Dave’s wife that she wasn’t comfortable with Dave’s intense affinity to Morrissey, which made me smile every time I saw the two pictures next to each other.

  “Close the door, please,” Dave sighed, while attending to his e-mail.

  I nudged the door closed with my foot and slunk down into his chair.

  “Okay, shoot, Daddy-o. Why should we rehash Jim Jacobs?”

  “I knew Jim personally, he was a friend of mine,” I said. “When the whole thing got crazy toward the end, there were things that he showed me that he never showed anyone else. He told me to tell the world, but …”

  “But other people have,” Dave interrupted. “For a year after that whole thing climaxed, I couldn’t open a magazine without another musician or artist waxing poetic on the greater meaning of the pseudo-cult that formed around that guy. What did he show you? The monsters?”

  I dropped my eyes, leaned back in the chair and shook my head.

  “Too bad,” he mumbled. “So, what new slant can you bring to it? Do you know if he’s actually still alive and will show up to this concert? I could make room for an interview.”

  I began to answer, but caught myself. I tried to maintain my poker face, but it was too late. Dave saw the thought wrinkle my freckly brow.

  “You have seen him,” Dave said, turning from his computer and leaning forward on his desk. I had my story, but not how I wanted it. “So, he’s alive, huh? Where’s he at?”

  “In Norman, and I haven’t seen him yet, but I got a phone call from him last night.”

  “Where the hell has he been all these years?”

  My fingers picked at a small hole in the fake leather cushion of the chair. I kept my eyes lowered to the stretched-out and distorted image of myself reflected off the back of the Darth Vader mug.

  “Well, if you believe him,” I grunted, “he’s been fighting back the ogre army.”

  Fucking Will, you tipped your hand.

  Dave let loose a sharp, nasal laugh followed by a snort. His laugh got me smiling, despite giving up the one thing I had wanted to hide from Dave. Jim might not talk to me; especially once he found out I had never told the world what I knew.

  Dave removed his glasses and rubbed his eye while the laugh settled into a cricket-like chirp.

  “You know,” he sighed, “it’s funny that you bring this up. I got an e-mail from someone who said he knew a guy that almost got killed in the woods. He’s in a coma in a hospital, in Dallas I think.”

  He leaned over his keyboard and started typing.

  “He said there was a video I needed to see,” he continued, while he wiggled his mouse around. “Sent me the link. Ah, here it is.”

  He swiveled his flat computer screen around to face me. There was a grainy video playing with a thin, dark-haired girl talking to the camera.

  “Let me get the sound,” Dave mumbled. “He said this girl was involved.”

  “… it’s all for you, Jim!” her voice erupted from the speakers. “I’d do anything for you, Jim, just come back to us. You want me to give up something?”

  She held up her hand as she cooed into the camera.

  “I’ll do it! I’ll do fucking anything you want!” she said. “Anything you want, if you ask me.”

  The sound cut back off again. It made me nauseous, but I wasn’t surprised. I didn’t recognize the face right away, but I knew the voice. That low, maple syrup twang. Confident, boyish and imbalanced. Her name was Misty. She’d grown into a young woman since I’d last
seen her. She was twelve when she started following Shropshire Plaid to every show they played. If she couldn’t sneak into the over–twenty-one shows, she’d sit out back with other overzealous fans and wait for the band to emerge.

  If I’d guessed which of Jim’s fans would go over the edge, Misty would be among the most likely candidates. I didn’t think she would beat someone to death, though.

  “Do you know who the girl is?” Dave asked, and I shook my head, lying. “Well, she’s talking about your Jim.”

  I glanced back at the screen as she ran the fingers of her right hand around the left wrist. She was always awkward when she was trying to be sexy. I could feel Dave’s studious eyes on me.

  “Supposedly there are videos of some kind of sacrifice,” Dave said. “Really gross, apparently. I couldn’t find it, though. Have you heard anything about that?”

  “Those people say a lot of crazy things,” I sighed. “It’s all just rumors.”

  “Think you can find her?”

  “This isn’t about what the cult’s become,” I said flatly. “I want to tell my side of the story.”

  Dave straightened, put his glasses back on and looked at me.

  “Find out if there are groupies in the woods doing cult-style sacrifices,” Dave said, tapping on the screen. “Try to track down the girl and Jim Jacobs. You do that, you can also tell your side of the story. In fact …”

  Dave turned the screen back away from him, looked over the girl and then back at me.

  “You get me Jim before anyone else,” Dave said. “You get me Jim and the blood and gore, I’ll give you the cover story.”

  “Okay,” I mumbled.

  “Huh?”

  “Okay!”